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once again,

unclear mind, unclear soul.
so much pain, so much anguish
I am so mad at you.
For lying to me so many times,
for cheating on me.
I was so good.
    I was so good of a person
I didnt know bad, i didnt know pain.
I was so pure.
If you pureed the worst nightmares of everyone on this planet
I am confident to the soul that mine could compete so closely with that
my worst fear used to be just loneliness, but loneliness without you, knowing youre there..
thats the real thing.

it only got worse after you. I became a raging alcoholic, which I hate alcohol trust me.
But than again I hate myself.
So much. I hate everything
Regret.. so much regret.

2016 has nothing but serious torture and fear for me.
if i even make it that far... lol i always say that..
I always say ill end it all, its weird. you say it so much
it becomes more real each time you do.
I had a good stretch :(
Of not thinking of you.

But this dream that's carved itself into my memory is infecting my day with an ocean ofheart ache and sadness

What do I do

Where do I go

Help me
Please

It hurts but hopefully not for long

This cold city

Oh

 

You

Without kindness, only with the single regard

Yourself is more important to me

What shall I do.

You are my friend

You are my friend.

 

Like a rainbow

Without peace

Yet so peaceful

It only wants you

You only want it.

So much for each other

Yet such a vacuum at first…

What do you do? ?!? !

A mystery that know one knows...
Where does love go when it goes...
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A mystery that know one knows...
Where does love go when it goes...
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Lazy here laying in my own demise
I wonder what you all despise
I've committed the most horrific crime
And become a very nasty slime

To that one I loved so dearly
I think about you 365 yearly
Can't really help it though
As my heart has taken a blow

I never wish you to forgive me
I live now just to let you be
I'll always love you so much
As I try to remember your touch

Josh will be perfect for your life
He will make you a very proud wife
I only wish the best for you two
Especially everything you've been through

Joshua, please. I know I don't even have to ask
I trust you so much to accomplish this task
She is worth more then the existence we know
I'm not worried with you and her though

I loved her to death
I became such an awesome human
As she made me 100,000 times better
Now I've fallen 100,000 lower then I knew existed

Imagine fighting a fire with your bare hands
Imagine drowning without being under water
Imagine suffocating at ocean level
And imagine loving a girl without a heart

I know you'll love her dearly
Please never hurt her
Please josh
I'd do anything for you alone
Do Not Forgive
Lazy here laying in my own demise
I wonder what you all despise
I've committed the most horrific crime
And become a very nasty slime

To that one I loved so dearly
I think about you 365 yearly
Can't really help it though
As my heart has taken a blow

I never wish you to forgive me
I live now just to let you be
I'll always love you so much
As I try to remember your touch

Josh will be perfect for your life
He will make you a very proud wife
I only wish the best for you two
Especially everything you've been through

Joshua, please. I know I don't even have to ask
I trust you so much to accomplish this task
She is worth more then the existence we know
I'm not worried with you and her though

I loved her to death
I became such an awesome human
As she made me 100,000 times better
Now I've fallen 100,000 lower then I knew existed

Imagine fighting a fire with your bare hands
Imagine drowning without being under water
Imagine suffocating at ocean level
And imagine loving a girl without a heart

I know you'll love her dearly
Please never hurt her
Please josh
I'd do anything for you alone
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once again,

unclear mind, unclear soul.
so much pain, so much anguish
I am so mad at you.
For lying to me so many times,
for cheating on me.
I was so good.
    I was so good of a person
I didnt know bad, i didnt know pain.
I was so pure.
If you pureed the worst nightmares of everyone on this planet
I am confident to the soul that mine could compete so closely with that
my worst fear used to be just loneliness, but loneliness without you, knowing youre there..
thats the real thing.

it only got worse after you. I became a raging alcoholic, which I hate alcohol trust me.
But than again I hate myself.
So much. I hate everything
Regret.. so much regret.

2016 has nothing but serious torture and fear for me.
if i even make it that far... lol i always say that..
I always say ill end it all, its weird. you say it so much
it becomes more real each time you do.

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Paltiel Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2014
Thankee for the point.

Enjoy the llama!  ^_^
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eewill Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the trade!
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PhoenixRisingFromAsh Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the trade! 
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IridiumEX Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
one sad thing for everyday, to remind myself who I am.
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IridiumEX Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
take my hand... walk with me
with your hand...set me free
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IridiumEX Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
is this where my soul is trapt? on a sheet of thin, fragile paper? written with a conduit so dull as my mind.
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IridiumEX Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
so suddenly, the pass of unforgiven
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IridiumEX Featured By Owner May 8, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Starting now I will be posting my work elsewhere, contact me for info
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SteamPixy Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Thank you for the favorite!
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NSolanki Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2013   Photographer
Thank you for the favourite add :)
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CountessBloody Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2012
Thanks very much for the fav, I appreciate Greetings from France
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MonotoneMinimal Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2012
Thx for faving :handshake:
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darkVOID42 Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
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Thanks for faving AVUS !
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darkVOID42 Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks also for the other favs and the :+devwatch:!
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JPtHart Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2012  Student Photographer
Thank you :aww:
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bens1n Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2012  Student General Artist
Thanks for the favoritism! :)
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DCPhotographics Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2012  Professional Photographer
hi there! many thanks for the fav! glad to hear you enjoy my work :D:D
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IridiumEX Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
Your welcome. you do good work
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melissaearl Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
:w00t!: Thank you so much for the :+fav: :w00t!:
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Stefano-Coltelli Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2012
Thank you so much for the :+fav:! :)
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AlexUba Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
Thx for the fav! :)
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EmilieBouvier Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the fav :heart: :hug:
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penfold73 Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2011
Thanks for the fav
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